Bright Side of the Road

Hi.

I know there’s a bright side of the road—I can see it and sometimes even reach it briefly. Utilizing the amazing skills of resilience that I learned from my late husband, guitarist Pete Huttlinger, I am working through the grief of losing him.

All in reflection

Just Do The Work

Oct 25

Oct 25 Just Do The Work

Erin Huttlinger

identity, reflection

My place is still to leave a mark from both of us. Somebody has to do it.

Oct 12

Oct 12 1,000 Days

Erin Huttlinger

milestones, reflection

I can’t even imagine taking the time to count to 1000 out loud—that would feel like an eternity.

Sep 20

Sep 20 Headstones

Erin Huttlinger

As sentimental as I am, I was wondering why it doesn’t bother me that I don’t have a specific place to go to be with Pete

Travel Log: Day One

Aug 23

Aug 23 Travel Log: Day One

Erin Huttlinger

The luggage carts were so small, I’m still not clear on why the hotel even offered them.

Jul 26

Jul 26 Close and Play

Erin Huttlinger

Meditation was out. At a time when I needed it the most, it was impossible unless I meditated with my eyes open.

Jul 18

Jul 18 For a Reason

Erin Huttlinger

“Rather than indulge or reject our experience, we can somehow let the energy of the emotion, the quality of what we’re feeling, pierce us to the heart.”

Jul 13

Jul 13 The Mattress

Erin Huttlinger

reflection, identity

It’s a feeling of anticipation as if something is going to happen, or if something should happen, or maybe I’m supposed to make something happen.

Jun 28

Jun 28 At the Bar

Erin Huttlinger

interpersonal, reflection

We’ll never know, but I can tell you now that, in our time together, we never ran out of things to talk about

Another Birthday

Jun 21

Jun 21 Another Birthday

Erin Huttlinger

milestones, reflection

It’s a creative place where we’d breathe in the fresh air, and clear our minds.

Jun 14

Jun 14 Why?

Erin Huttlinger

The repercussions of suicide are devastating, and the ripples of pain reverberate years later.

Jun 7

Jun 7 Partners

Erin Huttlinger

The pace and distraction are good for me, but this is not the life for a perfectionist.

May 31

May 31 Marigolds

Erin Huttlinger

The signs around the ICU were clear. “No plants or flowers allowed in Cardiac ICU.”

I Want To Want To

May 23

May 23 I Want To Want To

Erin Huttlinger

The wind is out of my sails, and the air on the horizon is still.

Returning to the Scene of the Crime

May 16

May 16 Returning to the Scene of the Crime

Erin Huttlinger

milestones, reflection

The air was heavy, the scents were heavy, and the memories were heavy.

Apr 26

Apr 26 Life Flight

Erin Huttlinger

I watched everyone walking from building to building—doctors, the problem solvers—bustling to see their next patient

Apr 11

Apr 11 The List

Erin Huttlinger

The only way his family saw him was if they bought tickets to a show. Such is the life of a working musician.

Down The Rabbit Hole

Mar 14

Mar 14 Down The Rabbit Hole

Erin Huttlinger

It reminds me of why I loved him as a player—why I loved him as a person.

Mar 1

Mar 1 Showers

Erin Huttlinger

The shower has become a space where I tend to have the gloomier flashbacks

Feb 21

Feb 21 Progress?

Erin Huttlinger

I experience the memories on a very physical level, and my brain doesn’t know the difference

How Did He Do It?

Feb 8

Feb 8 How Did He Do It?

Erin Huttlinger

How did he come home, after having been hospitalized for 10 days following a massive stroke and practice his guitar with any level of belief that it would get better?